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[Cassie]

Sorry I haven't been on lately. I'm super duper busy. I've got a new bf named Alex and we've been dating a little over a month now and we spend every day together, I'm working like crazy and I've got school and homework.

So my life pretty much sucks right now. I'm broke and cant afford my board for Shadow, I'm trying really hard to sell her but no luck so far.

So its 8 days before christmas and my grandpa died this morning! He died from the cold I gave him, so really, its my fault he's dead.

My little cousins are comming down on the 23rd and I'm working the entier time they're here. I'm going to try to get off work that day but if not I wont be able to see them at all.

The day after christmas I have to pack up and move into my grandmas house which is going to be h*ll.

Then a month later I get to move to a brand new city and school for 5 months then graduate there with a bunch of strangers.
I have to leave my house, school, friends, boyfriend, and family all behind on my senior year.

Everything just sucks.

[~♥Jesus Freak♥~]

Wow Cass.... I thought my life was rough...

Congrats on the boyfriend!! lol Things atleast goin well with him?

Your trying to sell Shadow? WHy? Because you can't afford the board? Can you talk to the person your boarding her with bout cutting you some slack? I mean you are 16 (17) and going to school and working for her board... They should understand.

First off, I am so so sorry to hear about your Grandpa. My heart goes out to you. Its NOT[/i] your fault your Grandpa died. It was his time to go to heaven. His time to go home. Weather you gave him the cold or he died of natural causes, he was gonna die, God called him home. His work on this earth was done. He completed his lifes mission.

Your cousins, well, hopefully you can get some time off. If not, they will have to understand, maybe you'll be able to go see them after the new year.

Why are you moving in with your Grandmother, just so a month later to move again?
I can understand being upset about moving your senior year, but... We have to learn to roll with the punches. It will suck, yes, but you'll meet some new people at your new school, it wont be all that bad.

You have to learn to look on the brightside of EVERY situation.
Again, my heart goes out to you. I'm very sorry to hear about your Grandpa.
I love you, keep your head up. God loves you and is watching over you. When times get tough, go to the one that can help. The "Big Man Upstairs" Our Savior. He'll help, all you gotta do is ask.
<3333 *Big, tight hug*

Nikki

[Cassie]

Thanks Nikki.

The reason we have to move in with my grandma for the month is because the people who bought our house were leasing a place before and their lease is up at the end of December. They'd have to get another 6 month lease in order for us to keep staying here. And my moms job is still here until the end of January so we can't move to TBay.

But now I've got some great news surprisingly! My dad says me and him might stay with my grandma while my mom and sister move! He doesn't want her to be alone. Especially since she can't drive. And you know what that means? It means maybe I can keep Shadow! The reason I was selling her was because there were no shows around where I was moving to. Now I'll still be able to show her. But I'm not sure yet.

Oh, and in the Ltd. Non Pro I'm #9 in the world! Theres an awards banquet in Oklahoma in Feb but I dont think I'll get to go. Its to far away. But I'm getting a letter in a few weeks that should tell me what I get.

[~♥Jesus Freak♥~]

I see. I can understand moving in with your grandma. Well, look on the brightside, how often will you even be home? Your apparently very busy with your bf, Shadow, work, school, so you wont be home very often. It'll be fine!

Thats GREAT news!!! Shadow will be very happy.

Wow! 9th in the world, thats wicked!!! Tell us what ya get!!!

[Cassie]

Well, no way can I keep Shadow. My dad says we dont have the money to compete and I'll have $2000 of insurance to pay. So that sucks, I was amp'd. I made a training shedual and everything. Oh well, I really must learn not to get myself excited about things until they're a done deal.

I'll be at home a lot. I'm not home so much right now because my curfew is midnight. I usually go see Alex after work at like 9:30 but my grandma will be sleeping at like 10 so I'll have to be home.

[~♥Jesus Freak♥~]

Aww, I'm so sorry to hear you have to sell her. Wow, thats rough.

I'm really tired right now, so I will get back to you and type more tomorrow. lol

[-Irwin Girl-]

Cass try not to think about moving as such a downer, think about it as an adventure.You may meet some incredibly amazing people,may meet another amazing boy and may love your new school way better.Look at its ups and forget about its downs, you can't change destiny.Don't fight where god leads you, just trust that its the right path.

One thing that is pointed out in one of my familes(3 now,Pat',Mantlers and birth parents), is that if you never see rain your not gonna appriciate the sun.Therefore if you didn't ever have to worry about seeing shadow and paying for board then you wouldn't appriciate her.If you grandfather hadn't died you wouldn't apriciate how much your grandmother means to you.Look past the rain and see the rainbow girly, I knwo you can do it.

As for your boyfriend, its a high school relationship the only time they last forever is movies.So just kind of think about how eventually you're going to settle down with that special sombody, and loosing him is just like a stepping stone.

AS for 9th girly, put on one huge smile and walk around like your president!You may have to sell shadow but look what she gave to you!Look what she brought you!You may not want to sell her,but maybe its somebody elses turn to fulfill their dreams.

I love you girly, and you know that.
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[Cassie]

Thanks Kansas. The big thing about moving that made me mad is that it would only be for 1 semester athen I would graduate. They were going to make me move away from all my friends and graduate with strangers. I can't believe they wern't going to let me graduate with my best friend that I've been bffs with for the pastr 14 years! But that doesn't matter anymore because i get to graduate here.