Time to cry!

[~♥Jesus Freak♥~]

lol
Lets see, where to start... First, my ex was tryin to get me back... sweet talkin me. Tellin me he still loved me, wanted things back to how they used to be. If I'd never of broken up with him, we'd probably still be together.... blah blah blah. Sweet talk. He had me... I was seriously considering going back to him then breakin up with my boyfriend tonight... well.... I started talkin to Myah.... He did the same thing to her that morning and the night before... I was crushed. All he basically wanted was a girlfriend. I was ticked.
But, at the same time, Myah's ex was tryin to get me to date him... Gah!
Then I was talkin to Myah.... found out her Poppa passed away Monday. I loved her Poppa. He was great. She wants me to go to the memorial service.... but its still not sunk in that he's gone... it kinda did last night... but not much.
And last but not least... the most upseting...
Thanksgiving night... I was so tired I couldn't think straight, well I accidently said "I don't care if I have a boyfriend..." when I meant to say "I'm not interested in anyone else, thus I don't bother flirting with anyone." Well, that ticked my boyfriend off. That hurt him... Even though I didn't mean it... I was crying last night talkin to him, apologiing... He almost broke up with me.... Gah.... I don't know what to do... I wanna cry again.... I love him.... I always have...

[[J u m p r g r l ♥]]

I'm so sorry Nikki. It sounds like you've had a really hard week! Keep praying and it will all get better. Your ex sounds like a jerk though, ignore him!

[~♥Jesus Freak♥~]

Man... I don't know what to do. My current, is ticked... I feel HORRIBLE. My ex... says he cares too much about me to keep hurting me... and Myah's ex wants to hook up... He's all talkin bout hangin out sometime... Talkin bout all he wants is to make me happy.
Can life be anymore difficult?

[EquitationRocker♥]

Aw I'm sorry Nikki. Your ex sounds like a player and a jerk, ignore him. As for your present boyfriend just give it some time to pass. And ignore your friends ex as well. And I am sooo sorry about your friend's Poppa!

[FreeStyle08]

im sorry nikki, I honestly dont know what to say or do besides give you the biggest hug in the world. but as far as your ex goes just ignore him he says he want to make you happy but by what you have told use it does sound that way at all, as far as your current boyfreind goes just give it time and show him that you didnt mean what you said.

when I started going out with Ernie i was scared to death that I was going to get hurt again but one of my very good freinds told me that you can hold the title as a couple but just be he best freind and you will be to gather a lot long then if you acted like boyfreind girlfreind.

your probebly wondering what I mean by that but like some people (including me) think that once they have a boyfreind some people think that you have to kiss, and you have to hold hands or what ever. but I have taken amandas advice and I couldnt ask for a better relationship, I am totaly falling for ernie and I cant imagine my life with out him.

nikki, if you take Amandas advice with your Boyfriend (if you havent allready) then I think you should try it and see where it leads.

[Cassie]

Aww, I`m sorry Nikki, I hope things get better for you. I agree with everyone, ignore the ex! Your bf will be fine, just give it a little time. Explaine (if you haven`t already) that you were really tired and that wasn`t what you meant to say. I`m sure he`ll understand.

[~♥Jesus Freak♥~]

Well, my ex... I aint taken back. No way, no how.

Jarrett though... He's still "disappointed" but... he's getting over it... slowly. I.... well, I've been crying about it all weekend. I litterally skipped church because I was crying so much. SO, Heather and I sat in the Fellowship hall and talked the whole service. (I made Jarrett feel bad for that one. lol)
JJ; your advice bout the best friend thing... Well we've been bestfriends for the last bout 5 years... so, when we started, we acted like bestfriends, but we both got the feeling that it was like we weren't even dating, so we changed.

Myah's ex... well I've pretty well made up with Jarrett, so I'ma tell him we can just be friends... He's supposed to call me later anyway.