Post by FreeStyle08 on Oct 6, 2007 22:58:23 GMT -5
ok first i have a show tomarrow the last one for the season, 1 dad hasnt came/seen any of my shows but 1 out of five. ok he came to my veary first dressage show this year missed the other 2 and he came to my fun show at tulelake but he went and got food and the stupied cooks forgot about his order so he missed all of my english classes. (but at least he seen 2 western classes)
and I have a show tomarrow as you already know and I dont think he is going to come to that one eather. and every excuse is he has to much to do for my grandpa. :<
and here is another vent.
but I had to take my grandma to the doctor to get her stitches out. (she got the extra skin taken off her eyes) andwell I had a hard day at school one becuase I forgot to take my meds and if i dont take them I get extreamly ertable and it didnt help that I was starting that time of the month (but i didnt know then) and well I come home and it like 9:30 AM and i tried to take just a few minutes to my self but the hole time till 11:30 she wanted me to do something for her, like get meat out for dinner and put on her socks and shoes for her (that part is fine) but then when she starts to try to reducorate and wanting me to find all this stupid crap and find space for the stuff that we take down I started to get upset becuase one minute she would say I cant take care of it but the next minute JJ can you come help me. she did this until 11:30 and then she asked if im ready to go to town and her doctor appointment wasnt until 1:30 and it only takes 30 minutes to get there. well I told her ya we will go in a few minutes and shes like NO i want to go now and when she started acting like my mom thats when i start to get angry and snappy. and so we go to town and she wants to stop in and get more dinners for her diete so I pull into safeway and ever things go ok not great but ok, so we get her dinners and stuff and head to her doctors and we get done there and the doctor told us to get vitemen(sp) E oil for were the stitches came out to help keep the skin soft and stuff. well I go into wall-mart and all there shelves were practacly empty and they had no E oil so i go into produce and tried to get the veggies she wanted but no they didnt have any coliflower. so i new she like cucumber so i got cucumber and baby carrots and mom salid stuff for dinner that night. well I finly get back to the care after like and hour standing in line (it was the first of the month and thats when all the wellfair people get there money) and she starts yelling at me because they didnt have colliflower or E oil so i go back to safe way to get her e oil and then she started in on me AGAIN that the bottle was to big and she was always on me that day so i as calmly as i could told her that this was the only size. and I needed to go to my freinds house to get my math book and i needed her to show me how to do a math problem well my grandma goes i need to go to the bathroom why dont you take me home first and im like mammy thats a waste of gass and time (becuase stacy lives in town about 30 miles away and gass is really expencive as most of you know) and well i told her you can go at stacy's and she starts throughing a fit about that and i told her mammy it will only take me just a couple seconds to get help and pick up my book so any way we are in stacy's house and im getting help and what not and we start to leave well stacy's mom didnt know my grandma came in so she didnt say hi or any thing but when we started to leave gerry got up and said hi and stuff (being polite) well we finly leave and get in the car and my grandma goes "that is one of the rudest and meanest person I have EVER met" and i think of gerry and stacy like family, they have been there for me through thick and thin and have never let me down. and as you know I wasnt feeling good any way and i get extreamly angree and offinded. 1 becuase she has never approved of any of my freind and i am tired of her always telling me that she doesnt like them or there rude or mean or what ever. so I flat started going off on her and she started screaming at me and she wanted to drive but her driving is really scary and im scared to even be in a car after I roled the pickup but what ever, and i told her no severl times that she wasnt driving so she reaches over and grabes the wheel which if any of you know any thing about driving that is the LAST thing you want to do unless the driver has passed out or something right. and i push her hand way and get controle over the car and she calls mom and she like Sheila JJ is being really rude and all this crap and then she O and she just hit me. which i didnt i pushed her hand way from the wheel so we wouldnt go in the ditch. and so i started talking to mom and shes like young lady pull that car over right now. so I did and mammy got in the drivers side and she starts in on me about how i act like my real father and all this and by this time I was LIVID which I cant stand John any way and its an insolt when some one says that. no this time i finly tell her the truth of what she is really like, (which my mom and dad agree with me and feels the same way about her) and I wasnt even thinking when i was saying this but I was like you know you can be one of the nicest people when you want to be but most of the time you are one of the rudest, meanest, nastey people I know. and so by this time we are basicly 5 miles from home and finly I get where I cant deal with any more after she calls mom again and tells her that I called her every cuss word under the sun which i did not she was the one cussing at me, the only things i said like that was crap and d*mnit. wile she was saying a lot worce things then that. (im not even going to post them) so we are now at the junction wich is about 2 miles away from the house so she stops at the junction and i jump out and start walking home. and I get with in about 3 tenths of a mile from home when mom and dad pick me up,
which i had called stacy becuase i had to call someone and i new if i tried to talk to mom i would get chewed out so i called stacy and gerry which are the only other people i can trust besides my doctor and he was on vaca at the time. and so she calls mom after i settle down and so thankfully when mom and dad pick me up they didnt yell at me.
your probebly thinking i over reacted but mom said if i still felt the same way about the situation then I probebly didnt over react and I dont think i did becuase just typing about it hear makes me angree with her.
but even though i angree when i started typing this it still feels good to be able to put it down and be able to openly vent.
Thanks to any one that read this.
and do you think i over reacted or would you have done the same or simular things i did.
and sorry i havent been on but i have been hybernating at home since the begining of the month.
and I have a show tomarrow as you already know and I dont think he is going to come to that one eather. and every excuse is he has to much to do for my grandpa. :<
and here is another vent.
but I had to take my grandma to the doctor to get her stitches out. (she got the extra skin taken off her eyes) andwell I had a hard day at school one becuase I forgot to take my meds and if i dont take them I get extreamly ertable and it didnt help that I was starting that time of the month (but i didnt know then) and well I come home and it like 9:30 AM and i tried to take just a few minutes to my self but the hole time till 11:30 she wanted me to do something for her, like get meat out for dinner and put on her socks and shoes for her (that part is fine) but then when she starts to try to reducorate and wanting me to find all this stupid crap and find space for the stuff that we take down I started to get upset becuase one minute she would say I cant take care of it but the next minute JJ can you come help me. she did this until 11:30 and then she asked if im ready to go to town and her doctor appointment wasnt until 1:30 and it only takes 30 minutes to get there. well I told her ya we will go in a few minutes and shes like NO i want to go now and when she started acting like my mom thats when i start to get angry and snappy. and so we go to town and she wants to stop in and get more dinners for her diete so I pull into safeway and ever things go ok not great but ok, so we get her dinners and stuff and head to her doctors and we get done there and the doctor told us to get vitemen(sp) E oil for were the stitches came out to help keep the skin soft and stuff. well I go into wall-mart and all there shelves were practacly empty and they had no E oil so i go into produce and tried to get the veggies she wanted but no they didnt have any coliflower. so i new she like cucumber so i got cucumber and baby carrots and mom salid stuff for dinner that night. well I finly get back to the care after like and hour standing in line (it was the first of the month and thats when all the wellfair people get there money) and she starts yelling at me because they didnt have colliflower or E oil so i go back to safe way to get her e oil and then she started in on me AGAIN that the bottle was to big and she was always on me that day so i as calmly as i could told her that this was the only size. and I needed to go to my freinds house to get my math book and i needed her to show me how to do a math problem well my grandma goes i need to go to the bathroom why dont you take me home first and im like mammy thats a waste of gass and time (becuase stacy lives in town about 30 miles away and gass is really expencive as most of you know) and well i told her you can go at stacy's and she starts throughing a fit about that and i told her mammy it will only take me just a couple seconds to get help and pick up my book so any way we are in stacy's house and im getting help and what not and we start to leave well stacy's mom didnt know my grandma came in so she didnt say hi or any thing but when we started to leave gerry got up and said hi and stuff (being polite) well we finly leave and get in the car and my grandma goes "that is one of the rudest and meanest person I have EVER met" and i think of gerry and stacy like family, they have been there for me through thick and thin and have never let me down. and as you know I wasnt feeling good any way and i get extreamly angree and offinded. 1 becuase she has never approved of any of my freind and i am tired of her always telling me that she doesnt like them or there rude or mean or what ever. so I flat started going off on her and she started screaming at me and she wanted to drive but her driving is really scary and im scared to even be in a car after I roled the pickup but what ever, and i told her no severl times that she wasnt driving so she reaches over and grabes the wheel which if any of you know any thing about driving that is the LAST thing you want to do unless the driver has passed out or something right. and i push her hand way and get controle over the car and she calls mom and she like Sheila JJ is being really rude and all this crap and then she O and she just hit me. which i didnt i pushed her hand way from the wheel so we wouldnt go in the ditch. and so i started talking to mom and shes like young lady pull that car over right now. so I did and mammy got in the drivers side and she starts in on me about how i act like my real father and all this and by this time I was LIVID which I cant stand John any way and its an insolt when some one says that. no this time i finly tell her the truth of what she is really like, (which my mom and dad agree with me and feels the same way about her) and I wasnt even thinking when i was saying this but I was like you know you can be one of the nicest people when you want to be but most of the time you are one of the rudest, meanest, nastey people I know. and so by this time we are basicly 5 miles from home and finly I get where I cant deal with any more after she calls mom again and tells her that I called her every cuss word under the sun which i did not she was the one cussing at me, the only things i said like that was crap and d*mnit. wile she was saying a lot worce things then that. (im not even going to post them) so we are now at the junction wich is about 2 miles away from the house so she stops at the junction and i jump out and start walking home. and I get with in about 3 tenths of a mile from home when mom and dad pick me up,
which i had called stacy becuase i had to call someone and i new if i tried to talk to mom i would get chewed out so i called stacy and gerry which are the only other people i can trust besides my doctor and he was on vaca at the time. and so she calls mom after i settle down and so thankfully when mom and dad pick me up they didnt yell at me.
your probebly thinking i over reacted but mom said if i still felt the same way about the situation then I probebly didnt over react and I dont think i did becuase just typing about it hear makes me angree with her.
but even though i angree when i started typing this it still feels good to be able to put it down and be able to openly vent.
Thanks to any one that read this.
and do you think i over reacted or would you have done the same or simular things i did.
and sorry i havent been on but i have been hybernating at home since the begining of the month.